Daylight savings time has been pretty rough for me. Somehow I just can't seem to get up at 6:15am, 6:30am... My body just wants to sleep through the hour. I wake up feeling defeated. I reflect on my morning pages. Get my shower. Thank goodness it's spring break so my commute isn't really bad. Then I just feel bad about showing up so late. I like to ease into my work day and I feel like with an early morning start I can have that.
I have to remember that happiness and being present is a challenge we can take with ourselves regardless of what has happened before. It's our outlook on life that we have so much control over. So what? I'll just have to try again and make the most of what I have for the rest of the day.
The most remarkable thing happened the other night when I stayed up until 1am. I was just hyped up and couldn't go to sleep. I was so excited about my new projects (artist way-creating art-creating a new food/travel/health blog) I couldn't go to bed. How do I blend my dreams into my reality. How do I blur the lines between work/life/play into one big party instead of feeling like I'm a split personality? It was also the first time I was able to write more than fifty things I was grateful and thankful for... I just kept going on and on and on and on.
I thought about the joy God already brings in our lives and how simple happiness can really be achieved if you let it. Some things I thought about...
+a bunch of beautiful purple tulips+manchego cheese,prosciutto and pistacios+sparkling water+water with mint and cucumbers+fresh herbs+a new cooking project+being around inspiring and good people+a boyfriend who is getting the rest and vacation he deserves+travel plans to Montreal and Colorado+the outdoors+bike riding+yoga at home and in studio+synchronicity+hot baths+spin class+salad made with mangos,bacon,avocado&raspberry dressing+opportunity for more creativity+fun work projects
Why do I constantly feel like I have to produce and go and accomplish when my heart wants to rest, celebrate, and feel restored? Where is that balance? When can I just be and relish in the joy?
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